Music Students at Concordia College (Moorhead)

Many people would feel blessed to study music here. A world class music program, for the first year an unrivaled choir, and and unbeliev able orchestra and band. Yet for all it's wonder...I feel cursed. A million people start out as music majors and only ten finish. And I've realized why. I didn't abandon my major because it was too hard. Ha. I've lived music for over a decade. More choirs and musicals than people could even image. Choir then school, then musical rehersal. On top of cello, and dance. I am used to the stress. No, it's the people. Never in my life have I met so many horrible people, that honestly believe that they are "nice". They are cruel and vicious and the honestly believe that that is okay. I always get to a point when I consider leaving music. Who wouldn't when it's consumed your life. But NEVER, NEVER have I actually felt this strongly about it. I can't handle the rudeness and the drama. "Oh Concert Choir thinks that they're better than everyone." No, they don't. People treat them like that. Like they should have to apologize about getting in to that choir. And chances are they are better than the people saying it. A real musician would respect them and congratulate them on their accomplishment. I will admit that the most vicious of the perpetrators are in Concert Choir. They are some very very mean people there. But also the nicest people reside there. People with hearts so pure you can't help but smile when you see them. They inspire you to be the best people you can be. "Oh Bel Canto is bad." False. They are better than 90% of other all female college choirs. A few girls every year in Cantabile just need to continue the cycle of really hurting those girls' feelings. Reality check. Most of you will be there next year. Have fun getting a taste of your own medicine. These choral rivalries need to STOP. We are all musicians. Yes some of us are more talented than the others. It's life. Don't make people suicidal by letting them know that every chance you get. Because chances are, (yet again) there are thousands if not tens of thousands of people better than you. It's very hard to want to continue here. This is highschool drama magnified to an extent that is unbelieveable. The worst paart of it all..is that I am becoming like these people here. And I will literally KILL myself before I let that happen completely. Because that is not what I am about or what music is about. Music is about sharing yourself with others. Expressing your emotions and being at peace. How can you sing a beautiful song about your lord and then 5 minutes later spread rumors or say something that crushes someone. To say you try to follow in his footsteps is a lie. Concordia is ONE. We maybe divided for a bit, but we are one music family. Hm. I am whining. I am bitching. I am everything you're thinking. And the sad part is I am the only one.